The lost one by Sunflower

I was a girl lost in a big world. In a world full of wolves but also sheep that could help me. But what did I try to be? I tried to be a wolf but that got me nowhere. I was rejected, abandoned, used for the things I owned. I always thought about myself saying am I not worthy enough? Am I not good enough? Did I do something wrong? Should I give up? One day I did but no matter where I wanted to go, or the people I sat with nobody ever clicked with me or really made me feel welcome. I cried and cried for friends not knowing who to cry to until one night. This night was a bad day for me but I decided to join in on a Christian prayer event. I fully gave my life to Christ that day and that prayer event changed my life. I was told that I was chosen and for that I don't need to fit in nor will I fit in anywhere I go, but I was told even if other rejected and abandoned me there was Jesus who died on a cross for me and never forget me as His blood was shed for my OWN SINS! For my wrongs and that CHANGED ME. I cry till this day each time I hear the story of Jesus, He is truly great and because of that I smile. I am able to do so much more and speak much more with Jesus, even if I don't fit in some places, I know that God is with me and so I don't need to. I know my worth and who I am so God truly revealed to me goodness and mercy which I am able to spread. People may think I have the perfect life looking at the money, or the smile I have but I don't. Imagine a girl who wants to do everything but is locked inside the house, a girl who wants the most out of life but always receives the least, a girl who is accused of things and once accused she made it true. I always made every accusation true; I was called a thief and I did make that true. I was called a liar; I made that true. I was called so many things and I always made it true, my own family has hurt me and others in life nobody can tell me the tears I have cried are not much for I cried many tears and only those who can really empathize would understand. Not every smile I made was true until I met Jesus, Jesus pulled down the accusations and made me brand new into a daughter of God. You may wonder why my pen name is sunflower of Jesus and that's because my name means in the golden meadow, I am in the golden meadow of Jesus and I grow each day through reading the word of God, I radiate the light of God through my smile and through who I am. Jesus has called me His sunflower and that is the name I shall keep from day to day.